Thank you Mira for your trust and courage.
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Hey,

I’m Mira, 30 years old and I have recurrent depression, agoraphobia with panic disorder and above all complex post-traumatic stress disorder. Illnesses that accompany me, but also made me the person I am today.

Up to the age of 21 I was repeatedly exposed to sexual, physical and psychological violence from various people. Only after my worst breakdown in 2015 – by then I had been in therapy for 3 years to deal with grief – did I talk about it and was in clinics permanently until the end of 2017. Twice over 6 months each on an open ward. Four months in between in a trauma clinic.

Since then I have shown a lot of courage, talked about everything that is stressful in outpatient therapy and by the beginning of September at the latest I have been living without therapeutic support for the first time in 9 years. In the last two years I have also been in the hospital for 4-6 weeks, but I am now able to recognize warning signals quickly and metabolize crises more easily.

You can imagine that I struggled with suicidal thoughts until 2017, until Corona was calm and then “relapsed” again by spring of this year – the thoughts were back. Stronger than ever. The disease has a firm grip on me.

 

What I now know:

At some point it just keeps getting better. Even if many people can no longer hear it. But I’m finally feeling better now. And for the first time in my life I would say I’m free and blissful with everything.

 

Of course, that doesn’t mean I’m “cured” now. I know that I will always have bad phases. But now I have faith that it’s “just” a phase. That I can hold out And that healing does not mean that one becomes healthy. For me healing lies in the small and big successes. In a shooting star. In a summer thunderstorm. In my husband and our cat.

That means happiness to me. Collecting moments like this.

Embracing greetings

Mira

Wie ich einfach lernte mein Leben zu lieben und meine Krankheit zu akzeptieren - Selfie mit Mira
Wie ich einfach lernte mein Leben zu lieben und meine Krankheit zu akzeptieren - Selfie mit Mira

If you suffer from panic attacks or PTSD, I would like to recommend the following two books.

Do you want to learn how to deal better with your illness?
What can be the reasons for panic attacks?
Would you like to enjoy the beautiful things in life again?

These two books can help you answer these questions and many more. I wish you that you will get a lot of information and tips along the way and that your life will change positively.


Chris

My name is Chris and I created Slowlow Lobster.
I write posts about mental illness. Topics that affect me personally, but also topics that contribute to clarification and the end of stigmatization.